Does the way I act offend/annoy any of you?
Like my swearing, my constant complaining, how highly I think of my OCs, how much I talk about myself, how much I use this place as a coping mechianism and stuff like that.
People have told me on other places and IRL that I'm annoying and stuff with how much I vent and swear and just- It bothers me.
I feel really annoying and like none of you actually like what I have to say or what I make. I am just a unsure about my gender, internet obsessed, annoying, socially anxious thirteen year old, after all.
I try really hard to please people. Always have. I want people to like me. I need attention to feel okay with myself. Yes, I'm aware that that's unhealthy as hell. Seriously, I do. Like, if I make/post something, and don't get comments, I feel really uncomfortable deep down. I talked to my mum about it, and she said its probably due to my anxiety.
It scares me, really. How much I need attention to be happy. Yes, I know its human nature to want attention from people. But I take it too far. Like to the point of feeling panicked and uncomfortable and just wrong if that happens.
So I'd like to apologize.
For swearing, for ranting like crazy, for being defensive, for venting, for unloading my problems, for talking so much, and for being an all around annoying person.
~signing off, Mathias